one mean bowl o cold cereal

Monday, April 19, 2004

I considered ending this with some huge thing. Some huge blanket to cover everything in the entire world, in my entire world. Some massive unbelievably inspiring thing. Something to really make up for all the shortcomings.

Instead, I've decided to give you ten seconds of my day today, because today is the only important day.




On the sidewalk, after the last improv class, in the nice warm night weather. Tim is talking about college, and everything that goes with it, with Karl, who graduated from NYU when Tim was five. Tim has explained, as he does all the time when any conversation turns slightly serious, his uncertain feelings towards everything in the entire world. Both people are talking, and the talking makes sense. You know, it's a real conversation, without answers. There is eye contact, and good pauses.

Tim, slowly, more eye contact: I just don't want to go a day without really... doing something with myself, without really... being there, I can never explain correctly how deeply I feel this, I just mean-

Karl, slowly knodding: No, I hear you.




This is not the most, the best, the ultimate, the end. This is just something from today.

It is not an ending.

I hope you're doing really well, and you find diamonds in the sky and somewhere to lean when you don't. And please write me an email, because I'm going to be doing something other than this webpage sometime soon, and I'm not telling anyone unless they email me. Very secret. Very elite.

It will be something that I care about, and something that I want you to care about, and be a part of, and I'd honestly love you to email me. You can make the default email "just sayin hi." Honestly, it's cool.

I'm really excited about the future. I'm really excited to see all of you soon, even those of you that I don't know are reading this.
I'm really excited for right now.

I could go on forever. I'll spare you. I don't want this to end, but it is right. Trust me, write me an email.

xoxo
Tim
QuailMan29@aol.com
posted by Tim Tim  # 10:00 PM